Living in a boot shaped country
Miles away from Tuscany
Living in the smallest villa
That in your life you've ever seen
But its okay, if I get hungry
I can plant some apple trees
Afternoons I'll drink wine, eat bread
With every type of cheese
Its a weekend, roadtrip to Rome
Oh my god its wonderful
A single pasta made for two
A million different ways to fall in love
Love stories don't come close
This is my hearts biggest desire
All this seems so complicated
But to me it sounds just fine
Sit for hours doing nothing
but to have you for yourself
Don't know myself in the morning
Be my best friend in the end
Say hello with bigger smiles
And say goodbyes with namaste's
Go to sleep and never wake up
Til I repeat it the next day
I keep dreaming
That I'd leave this place tonight
I don't know if it'll work
But it won't help if I won't try
Love stories don't come close
This is my hearts biggest desire
All this seems so complicated
But to me it sounds just fine
lunes, 20 de septiembre de 2010
viernes, 13 de agosto de 2010
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I can't wait to lose, and I can't wait to win. I really can't wait to have the perfect job but I also can't wait to work in Mcdonalds. I can't wait to be really heartbroken but I can't wait to exchange my vows. I can't wait to eat a piece of red velvet cake, but I can't wait to lose a pound. I can't wait for my math class to be over, and I can't wait to have my french class (hot teacher).
I can't wait to go skiing for the first time, but I also can't wait to fall on my ass.
I can't wait to laugh and cry, to lose and gain friends. I can't wait to buy my dream handbag and I can't wait to buy toilet paper. I can't wait to hear my father say 'no' to something I really want, and honestly, I'm thrilled when he says yes. Can't wait to travel the whole world and I can't wait to not afford it.
I can't wait to sleep til 3 am and I can't wait to sleep, well, all day long.
I can't wait to break my bones and I can't wait to show my scars. I can't wait to have a certain balance of both bad and good. Bad makes me stronger, good makes me happy; NOTHING makes me any wrong. Because the truth is... I can't wait to live.
Much love and xo's - Mercy
I can't wait to go skiing for the first time, but I also can't wait to fall on my ass.
I can't wait to laugh and cry, to lose and gain friends. I can't wait to buy my dream handbag and I can't wait to buy toilet paper. I can't wait to hear my father say 'no' to something I really want, and honestly, I'm thrilled when he says yes. Can't wait to travel the whole world and I can't wait to not afford it.
I can't wait to sleep til 3 am and I can't wait to sleep, well, all day long.
I can't wait to break my bones and I can't wait to show my scars. I can't wait to have a certain balance of both bad and good. Bad makes me stronger, good makes me happy; NOTHING makes me any wrong. Because the truth is... I can't wait to live.
Much love and xo's - Mercy
miércoles, 12 de mayo de 2010
i only sit back in my frontyard
i only sit back in my frontyard
and watch the cars pass by
i only sit back in my frontyard
and watch the people pass by
neighbors runners and the mailman
they seem so bored with life
but i just sit back in my frontyard
enjoy the things that pass by
....
sometimes i get a little desperate
and scare the people away
you see im sitting waiting for you
but when you come you never stay
so i just sit back in my backyard
just like my mom used to do
rocking in a rocking chair
just like my grandma in '52
im alright just like i should
im alone but its all good
im just enjoying the little time i have to myself
before i get to sail away
never been so patient
and its so hard when all i see is people leaving
but im alright just where i am
so dont worry
dont worry
and im staying here forever
cause this is the only place you'd ever find me
and im staying here forever
so dont worry
dont worry
and watch the cars pass by
i only sit back in my frontyard
and watch the people pass by
neighbors runners and the mailman
they seem so bored with life
but i just sit back in my frontyard
enjoy the things that pass by
....
sometimes i get a little desperate
and scare the people away
you see im sitting waiting for you
but when you come you never stay
so i just sit back in my backyard
just like my mom used to do
rocking in a rocking chair
just like my grandma in '52
im alright just like i should
im alone but its all good
im just enjoying the little time i have to myself
before i get to sail away
never been so patient
and its so hard when all i see is people leaving
but im alright just where i am
so dont worry
dont worry
and im staying here forever
cause this is the only place you'd ever find me
and im staying here forever
so dont worry
dont worry
miércoles, 24 de marzo de 2010
miércoles, 23 de diciembre de 2009
ta da!
So its christmas. I didnt give any gift to anyone. I just baked two cakes for both my sisters. Tada. Dont get upset if I didnt give you anything.
But the end of the year is coming up and its making me nostalgic. It normally does. A year ago i wrote one of my most important songs. One year ago people meant nothing. One year ago I was following the steps of what my heart wanted, not my head. In this year, the most important lesson i ever learned was to find a balance between what your heart says and head says. If you pay too much attention to your heart, you get depressed. If you pay too much attention to your head, you get cocky. Find a balance, I deeeeeply recommend it.
I feel like i need to name some people who made this year remarkable. Lets include things, music, and movies. Why not?
This is NOT in order
Dany Leza: Basically made my year in high school worth while. While i was looking around classes thinking HEY i wanna get the hell outta here, no one could listen. No one thought as I did. I wanted to go away and I wanted something way too big for this town. Then every little break we had we either discussed the stupidity of teachers (because of course, we are ALWAYS right!), discussed the latest gossip (Perezhilton FTW) or talked about how we were big fishes in a small pond. We dont know why, but we felt way too out of place. You know what? It doesnt feel out of place anymore. It doesnt because we've talked too much about it, that we made it our own little place. Although i do want to escape to Canada. Probably will, eh?
Oh and i will NEVER forget the time your mom crashed my car. And if i ever forget it, its written here. Ha. Ha. Ha.
Ale Vara: OH MY GOD!!! so many good moments. I love you babyy gurlll. We probably had manicure too many times in the year, and ate too many sushi too. I probably ate more food with you than in any other day of the year. We'll be obese BFF'S at the asylum, dont worry. I had NO fights with you this year, and you're growing up to be little miss atittude! Finally! I knew from the start that you were too valuable to be stepped on by other people. I knew you were going to speak up. Now you can't shut up. Its okay, i cant shut up either. I think we've had this conversation before... we are annoying talkers. And i love your family! They're good people, nice people. I love little Moccha. And i love you!!!!
Shmariel: You've had your ups and you've had your downs. My christmas gift to you is that you should NEVER give up. Ive been there and now, if you try to ignore the bad parts of your life, the good ones will just pop up. Its not good luck, its good will. Its God wanting you to have a hard time in order to have to value the good ones. And ive been there all year and you're the craziest mother fucker alive! (Quoting Hangover). You're weird and unique and different from anyone else. You keep losing faith in finding someone for you, but im not worried about that. I know you'll find someone who'll deal with your downs, and LOVE them. Just wait. Remember my sister found her perfect man at 20. You're 17. TOODALOO MOTHAFUCKA!
MAAAAAAAAAAAAAFE: HOLA!! I always have an exciting entrance when i talk to you! You know why? Cause you're like my closest friend. I always tell you everything. You never judge me. We both are basically the SAME people. Berkley 2011 for the win. And you know what? What i admire the most about you is that every single detail you either make it funny or make it happy. You're the most cheerful person ive ever met. Im so so so greatful that i have you as a friend. You're one of the most valuable people in my life! You're the kind of person that when I have a great day, i say IMMA GOING TO TELL MAFE. And viceversa. I'll always be here for you mafe bo bafe. love chu locaa.
Meli: you're the kind of person i dont have anything to say about. Cause, we've said it everything. You've been there always. Words are NOT enough. Besides, it would be uncomfortable talking about love with you. So i'll just say... Ew you suck.
Erin: I really really really really really really really need to meet you. Theres times when im like ERIN SHOULD BE HERE. All my friends know about you. You're special to me. Even when we dont talk much, i always think hey, erin is one of the few friends that has been in certain situations i've been. And sometimes i think HEY, Erin has the same freaking sarcastic not-funny-to-others kind of sense of humor. I know i'll laugh my ass off with you. I love you! You're one of my closest friends ever. I'm just really thankful to have you as a friend. I dont even know how to say it! You're aaamazing
Now i'm way too lazy to keep writing about this. So i'm going to list some people.
But the end of the year is coming up and its making me nostalgic. It normally does. A year ago i wrote one of my most important songs. One year ago people meant nothing. One year ago I was following the steps of what my heart wanted, not my head. In this year, the most important lesson i ever learned was to find a balance between what your heart says and head says. If you pay too much attention to your heart, you get depressed. If you pay too much attention to your head, you get cocky. Find a balance, I deeeeeply recommend it.
I feel like i need to name some people who made this year remarkable. Lets include things, music, and movies. Why not?
This is NOT in order
Dany Leza: Basically made my year in high school worth while. While i was looking around classes thinking HEY i wanna get the hell outta here, no one could listen. No one thought as I did. I wanted to go away and I wanted something way too big for this town. Then every little break we had we either discussed the stupidity of teachers (because of course, we are ALWAYS right!), discussed the latest gossip (Perezhilton FTW) or talked about how we were big fishes in a small pond. We dont know why, but we felt way too out of place. You know what? It doesnt feel out of place anymore. It doesnt because we've talked too much about it, that we made it our own little place. Although i do want to escape to Canada. Probably will, eh?
Oh and i will NEVER forget the time your mom crashed my car. And if i ever forget it, its written here. Ha. Ha. Ha.
Ale Vara: OH MY GOD!!! so many good moments. I love you babyy gurlll. We probably had manicure too many times in the year, and ate too many sushi too. I probably ate more food with you than in any other day of the year. We'll be obese BFF'S at the asylum, dont worry. I had NO fights with you this year, and you're growing up to be little miss atittude! Finally! I knew from the start that you were too valuable to be stepped on by other people. I knew you were going to speak up. Now you can't shut up. Its okay, i cant shut up either. I think we've had this conversation before... we are annoying talkers. And i love your family! They're good people, nice people. I love little Moccha. And i love you!!!!
Shmariel: You've had your ups and you've had your downs. My christmas gift to you is that you should NEVER give up. Ive been there and now, if you try to ignore the bad parts of your life, the good ones will just pop up. Its not good luck, its good will. Its God wanting you to have a hard time in order to have to value the good ones. And ive been there all year and you're the craziest mother fucker alive! (Quoting Hangover). You're weird and unique and different from anyone else. You keep losing faith in finding someone for you, but im not worried about that. I know you'll find someone who'll deal with your downs, and LOVE them. Just wait. Remember my sister found her perfect man at 20. You're 17. TOODALOO MOTHAFUCKA!
MAAAAAAAAAAAAAFE: HOLA!! I always have an exciting entrance when i talk to you! You know why? Cause you're like my closest friend. I always tell you everything. You never judge me. We both are basically the SAME people. Berkley 2011 for the win. And you know what? What i admire the most about you is that every single detail you either make it funny or make it happy. You're the most cheerful person ive ever met. Im so so so greatful that i have you as a friend. You're one of the most valuable people in my life! You're the kind of person that when I have a great day, i say IMMA GOING TO TELL MAFE. And viceversa. I'll always be here for you mafe bo bafe. love chu locaa.
Meli: you're the kind of person i dont have anything to say about. Cause, we've said it everything. You've been there always. Words are NOT enough. Besides, it would be uncomfortable talking about love with you. So i'll just say... Ew you suck.
Erin: I really really really really really really really need to meet you. Theres times when im like ERIN SHOULD BE HERE. All my friends know about you. You're special to me. Even when we dont talk much, i always think hey, erin is one of the few friends that has been in certain situations i've been. And sometimes i think HEY, Erin has the same freaking sarcastic not-funny-to-others kind of sense of humor. I know i'll laugh my ass off with you. I love you! You're one of my closest friends ever. I'm just really thankful to have you as a friend. I dont even know how to say it! You're aaamazing
Now i'm way too lazy to keep writing about this. So i'm going to list some people.
- Greta
- Marian
- Cony
- Lalo
- Chele
- Courtney (Yes, YOU!)
- Carla
- Dianis
- Marijose
- Melissa (yes, YOU!)
- Nutella
- aahahahhahahahahaaha
- Jason Mraz
- Kings of Leon
- (for keeping me updated with the tunezzzz)
- Mom, Pops
- Lola (the inspiration behind the name)
- Nana
- Oli
- Franco
- Puch
- Kirby
- Ha. no. no.
- Hangover. :)
- Lovely Bones
- Kelly
- Mike
- Brandon
- Tommy
- Cookies
- Sushi
- Pastry
- EVERY LITTLE THING. You and you and you.
xo - Mercy
lunes, 9 de noviembre de 2009
blank pages
bend his personality to fit just right into mine
you can't believe the way he talks and talks
and every single thing youve heard about this guy
he likes to braid the girls hair
and play piano instead of guitar
he didn't even know how far
do we ever know how far?
and if he only knew
that everytime I look at him I think of you
that his happiness was contagious
and that I smile instead of cry everytime I look at your book
and their blank pages
their blank pages
small things make the big difference
he's such a dork
the kind of boy with eyes that scream innocence
and I'm such a fool for spending my days without listening
but I'm moving on
does moving on really exist?
and if he only knew
I know he knows cause I look at the sky and I look at you
there's something so much bigger than what I say
but does it even matter anyway?
and if he only knew
that I figured out his little secret
of all those candies you're the sweetest
I guess god wanted a taste of you
more than I could ever do
god wanted a taste of you
for all those blank pages
with all those strange faces
that concert with your piano and a guitar
your blonde blue eyed girl
asking yourself are you really in love with her?
and all those strange places
you'd know by now
did your smile ever turn into a frown?
did you ever ran out of town?
would you ever get lost in the sound?
I wish I could let you fill them in
those blank pages
write on them back and forth
those blank pages
theres so much more you couldve do
but god wanted a taste of you
who knows when you're going to run out of blank pages..
maybe you wont even have time to fill them
live happy
xo - Mercy
P.S. ALL RIGHTS RESERVED
you can't believe the way he talks and talks
and every single thing youve heard about this guy
he likes to braid the girls hair
and play piano instead of guitar
he didn't even know how far
do we ever know how far?
and if he only knew
that everytime I look at him I think of you
that his happiness was contagious
and that I smile instead of cry everytime I look at your book
and their blank pages
their blank pages
small things make the big difference
he's such a dork
the kind of boy with eyes that scream innocence
and I'm such a fool for spending my days without listening
but I'm moving on
does moving on really exist?
and if he only knew
I know he knows cause I look at the sky and I look at you
there's something so much bigger than what I say
but does it even matter anyway?
and if he only knew
that I figured out his little secret
of all those candies you're the sweetest
I guess god wanted a taste of you
more than I could ever do
god wanted a taste of you
for all those blank pages
with all those strange faces
that concert with your piano and a guitar
your blonde blue eyed girl
asking yourself are you really in love with her?
and all those strange places
you'd know by now
did your smile ever turn into a frown?
did you ever ran out of town?
would you ever get lost in the sound?
I wish I could let you fill them in
those blank pages
write on them back and forth
those blank pages
theres so much more you couldve do
but god wanted a taste of you
who knows when you're going to run out of blank pages..
maybe you wont even have time to fill them
live happy
xo - Mercy
P.S. ALL RIGHTS RESERVED
jueves, 8 de octubre de 2009
eternal sunshine of the stressful mind
Time wasted is time that passes way too fast. I've been struggling in and out of things that arent my problems, doing stuff that i'm not interested in, and been nothing but stressed these past almost two months i havent updated. I updated because i felt inspired. I lost my inspiration.
I've done plenty of things i dont want to, but this is long term. I'm stressed 20 of the 24 hours a day... and with that you can almost calculate the time i sleep. I don't know where I am. I don't know where i stand. But I'm not sad. I'm just living things i dont want to live like if it was air; neccesary but not a bother. It just rubs off my shoulders.
Now the mistake i've done many times before was make a big deal. If you start to make a big deal about something thats wrong in your life, its going to be even bigger. Just ignore it, try to live, and you'll see how TIME HEALS EVERYTHING. I fully understand that term now.
Now in between missing the cruise, wanting to go away to achieve something bigger than me.. theres the truth. I've gotta let go, but i've gotta move on. If i really want to go away, i'll go away. I've been a big fan of change, and i'm going to do it.
"So what if it hurts me? So what if i break down? so what if the world throws me off the edge, my feet right off the ground. I've gotta find my place..." (Leona Lewis gets me)
So, i dont care if you think i'm demented. I'm alright with it. I know some things will hurt me on the way to try to change, but it'll be for the better. I thought i fought the battle but all i was doing is getting my armour. Things are not supposed to make sense at the time. Maybe i'm wrong, i will NEVER say i'm right because i'm not the one to say it. I'd be ignorant, knowing that everything that is right might be a mistake later. I'll just do whatever i think will make me feel better, not benefit me. Hell, benefit will fly away someday. I just want to be happy.
Anyways... where i was going with this is that i had yet to find something that would make me feel that relaxation, that "im stranded in the middle of nowhere" feeling. The feeling i have when i don't care who's around and i just focus on one thing. That feeling that i get when i'm fully living. Its being in a total peace of mind.
And i'm here to tell you i found my answer.
Books.
I've grown fond of some books. I read stuff that are interesting but yet weird. The weirder it gets, the better. I love reading about something that makes your life change. And i love tragedies.
I was looking through my sisters books and i found something. Its called "The lovely bones". You might've already heard about it, its going to be a huge movie. I decided to read it. I had enough free time on class to waste on this book. I was going to start reading again
Although the day passed as slow as can be, at 2:00pm i had read half the book. I felt someplace else. I felt that state of mind i needed. Not the typical teenage feeling i had. Not the clothes, not the guys, not the gossip. Not anymore. I felt peace. And i loved it. And i didnt care who knew. I spent most of my free time sitting on the floor reading. Some teachers passed by and smiled. I got appreciation from teachers AND my "mind-sleep" i needed. I was happy.
So read this book. Its NOT a happy book. Well what i've read. But its life changing. I'm not going to tell you whats it about but what i can tell you is that this author is amazingly talented in portraying a teenage tragedy in a teenagers eyes. It doesnt get boring, and it doesnt get scary. You either get too traumatized, or not traumatized at all.
So thats it. My blog entry. I've realized that mind relaxation makes me wanna write blogs. I forgot what my password was. Its my school's fault. You take my mind out of the important things...
Your typical hugs and kissessss - Mercy
P.S. I love dany. "Lo voy a poner de quit!!!!"
I've done plenty of things i dont want to, but this is long term. I'm stressed 20 of the 24 hours a day... and with that you can almost calculate the time i sleep. I don't know where I am. I don't know where i stand. But I'm not sad. I'm just living things i dont want to live like if it was air; neccesary but not a bother. It just rubs off my shoulders.
Now the mistake i've done many times before was make a big deal. If you start to make a big deal about something thats wrong in your life, its going to be even bigger. Just ignore it, try to live, and you'll see how TIME HEALS EVERYTHING. I fully understand that term now.
Now in between missing the cruise, wanting to go away to achieve something bigger than me.. theres the truth. I've gotta let go, but i've gotta move on. If i really want to go away, i'll go away. I've been a big fan of change, and i'm going to do it.
"So what if it hurts me? So what if i break down? so what if the world throws me off the edge, my feet right off the ground. I've gotta find my place..." (Leona Lewis gets me)
So, i dont care if you think i'm demented. I'm alright with it. I know some things will hurt me on the way to try to change, but it'll be for the better. I thought i fought the battle but all i was doing is getting my armour. Things are not supposed to make sense at the time. Maybe i'm wrong, i will NEVER say i'm right because i'm not the one to say it. I'd be ignorant, knowing that everything that is right might be a mistake later. I'll just do whatever i think will make me feel better, not benefit me. Hell, benefit will fly away someday. I just want to be happy.
Anyways... where i was going with this is that i had yet to find something that would make me feel that relaxation, that "im stranded in the middle of nowhere" feeling. The feeling i have when i don't care who's around and i just focus on one thing. That feeling that i get when i'm fully living. Its being in a total peace of mind.
And i'm here to tell you i found my answer.
Books.
I've grown fond of some books. I read stuff that are interesting but yet weird. The weirder it gets, the better. I love reading about something that makes your life change. And i love tragedies.
I was looking through my sisters books and i found something. Its called "The lovely bones". You might've already heard about it, its going to be a huge movie. I decided to read it. I had enough free time on class to waste on this book. I was going to start reading again
Although the day passed as slow as can be, at 2:00pm i had read half the book. I felt someplace else. I felt that state of mind i needed. Not the typical teenage feeling i had. Not the clothes, not the guys, not the gossip. Not anymore. I felt peace. And i loved it. And i didnt care who knew. I spent most of my free time sitting on the floor reading. Some teachers passed by and smiled. I got appreciation from teachers AND my "mind-sleep" i needed. I was happy.
So read this book. Its NOT a happy book. Well what i've read. But its life changing. I'm not going to tell you whats it about but what i can tell you is that this author is amazingly talented in portraying a teenage tragedy in a teenagers eyes. It doesnt get boring, and it doesnt get scary. You either get too traumatized, or not traumatized at all.
So thats it. My blog entry. I've realized that mind relaxation makes me wanna write blogs. I forgot what my password was. Its my school's fault. You take my mind out of the important things...
Your typical hugs and kissessss - Mercy
P.S. I love dany. "Lo voy a poner de quit!!!!"
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